MY blog?

It seems like all friends and cousins and strangers have a blog these days. I figured it could have some useful, good and fun potential, so I got me one of these things months (years?) ago. Since then I've used it some, but it's had no purpose really or vision, and that's bothered me. "Look at so-and-so's blog, she writes such inspiring things, and look over there at her's, she writes funny, homey things, and then, he writes about the things God's doing in his life, and she.... and me... I've just got an old blog, to spout my nonsense... or say nothing at all is more like it." Well...maybe it's not like that quite, but you know how things can seems sometimes. But honestly I do want to do something with this blog, and I love having places to tack things down, as it were, and share my life a bit. One reason I haven't gotten into posting much here is that I've had such a terrible time trying to get it to work, with posts disappearing or more often coming out formatted the wrong way (not like I told it to be! I'm sure) and so on, but I think it's working better now.. or maybe I know how to run things better?? And if there are still problems, well, I guess I'll live with them or work more on them.

So, anyhow, as life was going along and I wasn't yet doing anything with my blog, just thinking about it, I heard this sermon at church, and the part that really caught my attention had to do with identity and how we westerners love to find our identity and it's a big deal to us. But actually what is better is to lose our identity in Christ. Wow! That's such a problem for me. I get so caught up in "defining myself." Really I do. Everything I do, whether very conscious or not, "What does this make me? How does this build my life? Does it add a nice little part to my life? Does it reflect ME?" But wait, does it reflect Christ in me? Really does it? Can I lose my identity in Christ? You know, that's what I want, but I still feel so tied up in ME, and even as I write, I can't help but think that I'm really caring about what I write in how it defines ME...even as I want this blog to be a place to honor God in seriousness and fun, to reflect Christ, I know I get so caught up in ME...

That said, I've decided still to change a few things and go on with this blog, try posting something useful or fun or encouraging or practical weekly? maybe less, maybe more. I'm not promising, just aiming at that for the time being. I don't have any very specific mission or purpose for this blog, but for the moment it's just going to be a nice casual, homey, random place (maybe?). It might become a place where you all out there can actually hear some of the news of my life, but I don't know... I really like that personal e-mail still, and wouldn't have as much time for it if I posted news to you guys all together on here.